Inception

I’ve been sober for over a month and a half now, and trust me, I feel fucking great. The thing is, that since I’m a weekend binge drinker, when Saturdays and Sundays come, I have a lot of free time, and honestly, I don’t know what the fuck to do with it. I’ve been thinking about old and new hobbies, but I don’t want to make the same mistake that I always make… jumping into something and then abandoning ship. This time, I’m going to dip a toe in the water first, before deciding if I should jump in..

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all 👊🏾

~TTV

Let's Go What? Let's Colonize What?

Hey look, I’m no expert, but I just wish that the people who keep pushing the let’s go green and the lets colonize other planets bullshit, would go to a corrupt third world country in turmoil or war, and preach that same bullshit, to the people who are struggling to survive and don’t have shit to eat or drink. They should go out to the streets and preach that same bullshit to the homeless people. They should preach that same bullshit, to the people who are living paycheck to paycheck. As a matter of fact, they should preach that same bullshit to the people who are struggling day in and day out.

Millions of people die of hunger and hunger-related diseases. Millions of people lose their homes. Millions of people are homeless. Countries can’t get along with one another. We have fucked up our planet. Yet, we want to go green and also colonize other planets? Why?… So we can fuck it up YET AGAIN! What will we call it? Fuck up a planet part II?

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all 👊🏾

TTV

Sad Music Sucks

For the past couple of mornings, I’ve been noticing that on my way to the salt mines, I have been feeling down and shitty. Today I was finally able to figure out something that I have been aware of for a long time. I can’t start my day, by listening to sad music, because it dictates my mood for the day. But you would think that I learned my lesson by now. I guess, that’s the reason why I love listening to uplifting House music with no vocals. 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all 👊🏾

~TTV

The Past Is Just That

Sometimes life sucks, but that’s not what is all about. Sometimes we get stuck in the past and refuse to move on. We blame everybody and their mother, for everything bad that has happened in our lives. The thing is, that it doesn’t matter whose fault was it, we must learn from the past, leave the past in the past and move on.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Saturday Stinking Thinking

Last Saturday afternoon, while I was doing some shopping with my wife, the weirdest thing happened to me. As I looked at the snow come down, I had this strong desire to drink. But I quickly reminded myself, that I have been sober for over a month and I couldn’t fuck that up no matter what. 

Later on, I was able to figure out, that because every time that we had a snow storm on a Saturday, since I’m off from the salt mines, I stayed home drinking and so my brain was associating Saturday and the snow with drinking. But after all was said and done, I dismissed the stinking thinking and got on with my day. One thing for sure is, that I don’t miss the fucked-up hangover. 

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all! 

The Meditating Househead

From the mid 80’s until the mid-90’s, I was what they call a bedroom DJ and my favorite genre has always been House music, in other words, I’m what they call a Househead. I’ve always loved mixing music, because just like alcohol, it relaxes me and disconnects me from my Bipolar racing thoughts and my OCD intrusive thoughts. A while back, I gave up mixing, but it is still in my blood.

Since July of 2019, I have been told by many people, to give meditation a try. I have tried many times, but I haven’t been able to get into it. The one idea that popped into my mind yesterday morning was, that since I’m a Househead, I should give instrumental House music a try, and to be honest, I believe that I have found something that will really work for me.

My point is, that if different meditation methods haven’t worked for you, then you should try listening to an instrumental version of your favorite music genre.

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Family Matter

TGIF my homies and homettes. I hope that you enjoy your morning, noon, evening or night to the fullest. I know the drill, so make sure to stay clean and or sober, specially this long ass weekend.

First, I would like to apologize to my loyal 1.5 readers for my late Friday post. YEAH RIGHT! Like if anybody really gives a flying fuck! But anyways, what had happened was… LMFAO, I always like to hear people say that shit. My wife’s asthma has been acting up since yesterday, so I decided to take a vacation day to stay home and take care of her.

In my defense, I have asked her numerous times since last night, if she wants to go to the emergency room, but as usual, she refused. Why? Because she hates hospitals and she think that she will be admitted for a couple of days. She has been using her inhaler and nebulizer, but we both know that she needs industrial strength medications, so she can get back to feeling better soon. Hey, it’s like they say, “you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make him drink”. You’ll have to look at it from my point of view, I can’t force her, because I’m just her husband of 30+ years. SMFH!

With that said, I am Audi 5000 y’all!

Sobriety Counter: 41 Days = 1 Month And 10 Days